Before meditation my mind was full of sorrow, despair and emptiness. I felt like a walking zombie living 100 miles an hour in a rush to go nowhere. I woke up one day having nothing in my hands, emptiness in my soul and noticing the pieces of my broken heart scattered every which way. I knew I was done! Either I found an answer to all this Armageddon inside me or I would rather leave this earth and call it a day.
I cried for help and the universe listened, that very same day I decided to seek for something not sure what for; but I knew that God would answer; I came across the Palisades Park Meditation information through google. That same day I decided to go and seek for help. I was introduced to the method and thought I was too tired and the voices in my head were too loud I decided to give it a try. I was in deep despair and I knew that spiritual enlightenment begins by going within; a method that I knew perfectly well could not be taught in a religious setting. I mean no offense but I have yet to see the manifestation of Truth in many of these entities. Anyways, let’s move on. So my journey began.
Through meditation I was able to disappear the voices in my head. I spent many years listening to them and being convinced of their reasoning behind every situation in my life. Oh they said, you are not happy! You are doing it wrong! You will be lonely! You need to hurry! You are late in life! You are sad! You are not pretty enough! You are not smart enough! You are boring! Blah, blah, blah the list goes on…
Week 1: I cried and cried and tried to release the photos of my recent past which were aching like a knife stabbed in my heart. My mind kept telling me you are crazy, you look funny sitting here, this won’t work. Blah! Blah! Blah! Nonetheless, I kept repeating to myself you have lost it all already, what else can you lose; and kept going.
Finally felt some peace, hard to explain the pain was still there but I was somehow ok with it. I didn’tfeel angry or sad just at peace. I was somehow just the observer.
Wait, Is that a genuine smile???? Yes, indeed, for the first time I smiled from the inside out. Pain level still high but somehow I felt like a hero, knowing it could be many things but here I was trying to better myself so that I won’t damage anyone.
Passing level 1: Seeing the Truth
Where the Truth is made so clear; once you see it you will never be the same! Yes, I saw it! If I could explain it in words it would be as simple as telling someone I had an encounter with God I saw the Truth of all situations, nothing to worry about! All is well! It is so clear!!!!!!!! You need to experience it so you can understand what I am talking about but I can guarantee you that experiencing this with a sincere heart would make you never be the same.
But wait! There is still much work to do, you have seen the Truth now is time to continue removing all that is not Truth from your life.
Fast forward to level 2
Yes you will have to buy my book if you want to read what happened in other weeks. (Just kidding) but really too long to put on this “short” testimonial.
Passing level 2: No Mind
All my life I never had a quiet moment, even if I was alone, I wasn’t I could have conversations and relived situation some which never happened over and over again. I would go into a trance and travel many years in the past, and many years in the future. I would travel and travel and the only souvenirs I would bring back were worry, anxiety, anger, and stress; and yes you are right I would share them with everyone I encounter. Experiencing the true silence and the complete emptiness is one of the best experiences ever!!!!!!!! Yes!!!!!! I just sat there having nothing to think about, nothing to stress about, nothing! Nothing! Nothing! Nothing! At first, I thought I had fallen asleep, but then after trying again I noticed nope that is just me, I have nothing in my mind today.
Enlightening to level 3, experiencing that empty mind only means it is empty from the data that you have saved in it, much which is extremely damaging to our souls. Data that prevents us from living this life fully. Having no mind, only means that your mind has surrendered to be filled with the mind of God (Universe). Which is all wise all that is and that will be for eternity.
(Less you more God). Excited about Level 3, stay tuned.
When I opened my eyes, I first felt the Universe. I felt I was in a new and amazing place connected to me, and was amazed at its power. The room and myself felt alive, in the matter of moments. I was extremely grateful and could not stop smiling, that I may have accomplished level 1. Afterwards, I continued to feel focused, energized, yet completely relaxed and peaceful. I noticed the world around me was clear and beautiful and new, much like how I viewed the world as a child. I felt a pure energy and peace around me and was so grateful to the Universe!
It all started one day in May of this year while attending the Hackensack Riverkeeper Earth Festival. I saw the Palisades Park Meditation’s booth recruiting new members. I passed by once and glanced at it and continued on checking the other booths. But in the back of my mind I kept on thinking of the meditation booth. That’s when I decided to check it out. I stopped by and set-up my first appointment to visit the center. I became a member on my first visit.
I completed level 1 September of 2018. I learned a lot through my meditation’s period. I had a few a-ha moments. One of my a-ha moments was when I realized that I did not like people to know that I once worked in the same town that I lived. I thought people would think how lucky I was, I also would think to myself what I did to deserve it. After throwing away that picture of my thoughts I realized how crazy they were. No one is interested where I work or worked. People are living in their own mind world to care or should care. I also should not care about such a silly thing.
I also realized that I am a perfect meditation’s candidate. I believe the method works. My mind created and creates those crazy thoughts. Through meditation and will power, I should be able to throw those same crazy thoughts away. Maria, Lauren, and other center’s volunteers are there to assist you. I even learned from other members as well. I feel that I fit into the team. I am different but at the same time the same way as all others. I also like the meditation’s process. The 7 levels are structured. It took me until recently to get a hold of level 2. Now, I feel I may collect the fruits from this level as I practice it.
I also enjoyed the Pot Lucks held by the center. I attended one of them and I loved it. I had a hard meditation session that day. I felt anguished and unsettled, but after the pot luck dinner, I felt so good. I was happy that I stayed for it. I hope on attending other Pot Lucks. I recommend other members attend the Pot Lucks and retreats initiated by the center whenever possible.
I am also finding myself through the meditation process. I hope to continue on doing so, I want to free myself of my own mind. Clear it. Use my mind for something good instead of using it against me. I hope after completing the levels that I will truly find myself, be a better person, and have peace.
I hope all members achieve the peace of mind or any other goal they hope to achieve through the meditation.
I have a lot to learn. I have ways to go to find the universe peace, but I am ready for it.
I am also finding myself through the meditation process. I want to free myself of my own mind. Clear it. Use it for something good instead of using it against me.
This meditation is? “simple and so powerful”
Before meditation, the life I have lived from the outside looked good. Perhaps to the eyes of the people around me I was happy and confident with family, school and work but I was very worried and always felt pressured within. I always had this need to please everyone and was obsessed about maintaining an image for a good person in front of others. I was always hiding behind my fake smiles and heavy make-up, covering myself up to be perfectly good. Through the meditation I realized that this was all because I was so worried about how the world saw me. I was so worried that I never wore white socks or bright colors because people could then see how dirty my feet were. I felt as if the world was judging me for every little thing about me. My insecurities always overwhelmed me that I was haunted with insomnia.
However, reflecting back at my life, the meditation has really helped me see that I was only living inside this bubble. I was stuck inside a place where I cared only about my self-centered views and comparing myself and wanted to become better with my own standards that I had made to myself. Now that I look back at myself, I was so ridiculous! Riddling myself with so many worries.
I have done the meditation from level 2 in Korea, so I have not yet met people that know of the old me. However, even the people here say that from the time I’ve been here that I look brighter. I see my own change too, my insomnia is gone and I dance around in whatever colored socks, without makeup. When I no longer rely on the opinion of others, I feel much stronger and free. The greatest gift the mediation has allowed me is to allow me to see that the world does not spin around me. I have been living only for myself. For me, the greatest part of this meditation is to see reality, the true world, outside of my bubble.
You start to see yourself, the way you are in all aspects of your life
The cool thing about this meditation method is that it has this ability to show you who you are from a much bigger perspective than yourself. It is really hard to see yourself as yourself, so the method has this way of showing yourself from a bigger perspective. Then you get to reflect on yourself on how you actually are and you see things in yourself. And I saw things in myself that I did not realize that I had before the method. I think that is one of the biggest strength of this meditation. Speaking from my own experience, I found it really hard to bring big changes within myself but this method has helped me get rid of my habits and useless negative thoughts.
I am definitely happier now and also just more relaxed. I feel better within myself and that is the best way to define happiness for me. Also, I am more focused. I mean I work with computers and it is important to have patience and really be able to focus throughout the day. I work with my head the whole day, thus it is so important to be able to be relaxed within myself. Not always trying to move, not always thinking about something else, just staying put; and the meditation has definitely helped me with that.
The meditation has also improved me as a husband and father. One problem that I think in many relationships I find is; you have this expectation of the other to give you something the whole time. You want to get something from that person. And I think the meditation has changed that perspective for me and my wife. It is now more about putting in the work yourself without underlying expectations for one another. Also, this meditation has changed the way I see my children. I seem them more as the way they are than I did before as a parent and as a father. There was a certain bias that came with the strong attachment that I had for my children. Getting rid of that, I think you start to see your family in a more realistic way. This is also good for the kids, because they feel that and they feel actually more relaxed around me.
The difference in my life … can be described with one word: Gratitude.
I don’t have any dramatic life story to tell. From the outside, my life looks quite ordinary. I grew up in a safe environment in a suburb in the outskirts of Stockholm. I had friends, a Nintendo video game and everything a kid could wish for. My family was not religious and relatively open-minded, so I was free to make my own life decisions. I graduated from university and got a job at an IT company and thought I would be happy but, in my mind, I was never truly happy. Every time I achieved something that I wanted, I just wanted something else, something more. I was constantly stuck in my thoughts with my wandering mind. I was always wondering, stuck in my own thoughts, asking myself why I had so many thoughts in my head. I tried so many different things to find an answer but everything I tried only gave me a temporary release.
Though very quickly I realized by doing this meditation that this thinking was about myself and the reason that I think so much and why I was so stressed was because I was caring only about myself. For me, I used to carry things that were unnecessary. I knew that ruminations were unnecessary and bad for me but I didn’t want to nor know how to let go. However, through this meditation method I learnt how to truly let go of the worries and thoughts and to me that is true relief.
Now, there is a huge difference between the me before and the me now. Before, I needed so many things in life to be happy. I needed my hobby and I needed to have certain people in my life. I thought I needed a lot of things. Now I have no worries about the future so with this mind I can just live and the universe will take care of things for me. Now I have also learned that when I sincerely care about others more than myself my stress fades away and I now know how to truly contribute to the world. The difference between my life before and after the meditation can be described with one word: Gratitude.
I feel so much gratitude for this meditation, for being able to let go, and for being able to confirm with my mind that I am fundamentally one with everything around me.
Be the change you want to see in the world
I think when I was born I chose 100% heart and zero head. I love people and love to help them. That has been part of my life for a long time and even the success in my career comes from it. However there came a point in my life where I sought for ways to help others but drove myself insane because I could not find a way to help the other. Once, one of my family members was suffering from depression. There was nothing that I could do to help and knowing that I couldn’t help that person brought me to an even deeper depression. However, once I started the meditation, I noticed a change in me. I realized that only I can change myself and only I can help myself. It was no longer about my need to help and improve others but it was more about being an example to the people who require the help. I found a way to show true compassion and love to others by helping myself. Everything I do and want to say in a short version is that ‘live by example and be the chance you want to see in the world.’
When I started the meditation in the U.S., my career grew a lot faster. People were nicknaming me as a “superstar” and I was awarded a title as the ‘Top 5 Person’ within my industry with a promotion of an executive VP. Though my career was successful I realized that my job made me so busy. I knew there were a lot of opportunities for me to grow through the meditation and I knew to gain something I needed to sacrifice something. Thus with a bold decision, I chose to go to Korea to invest in myself and it was not just a gold mine, but a diamond mine. I can see that most people who want to try the meditation are just so busy with their lives, but I wish they take a moment to invest in themselves to find what is that they truly want in their lives. For me, I just love who I am inside right now. The language and food was very different in Korea but it is nothing compared to the depth of the gratitude I have for the method because it has changed my whole entire life. Though the past 4 months of meditation in Korea, I was able get over my traumatic experiences in my past, conquer my phobias, and be free from the health conditions that has been following me all life. Many people tell me that I’ve changed a lot and tell me that I look brighter and younger.
At this point, my heart is full of joy and love and gratitude. So with this gratitude that is inside, I want to give this out to other people now, by being an example.